Today was a good day for me. I haven't had one of these in such a long time. All day I'm here thinking why am I happy, I have no real reason to be. Honestly all I could figure is that it had to be because I was wearing a dress, and we all know how silly that sounds.
So I ventured out to the library. WOAH!! I mean for me, spending an hour in the Library is a big deal for me lately. XD, So while there I'm reading a book and one of the charecters is going from Irland to France ect... and I just think, I want to be able to do that. I was to go to some country I've never been and see things that have always seemed out of reach for me.
Walking home, a different way then usual, I pass by a nice house and I think to myself, I'd love to live in that house if only it wasn't in New Jersey. Then I think, New Jersey is not that bad. It's been good to me. I have a great job, of course I don't want to still be there 10 years from now, but a good job where I am treated very well. When I think about my furture goals, of course they don't include running the place, but so what if I did. I would be an active member of a wonderful community with the perfect job. I could have a job that I know, love am good at, ect.. and would still have the ablity and flexibility to be an active mother as so many of my co workers are.
I think I don't want to be trapped, I don't want to spend the rest of my life in New Jersey wondering what if.
At the risk of sounding like a spoiled brat. I get home from work/the library head to my room to find that my bed has been taken apart and put back with sheets that aren't for my bed and everything moved around in my room all after I had just spent 2 hours re arranging everything to be just as I wanted it and made my bed with my favorite bed sheets the night before. I come home to findout that I need to do it all over again even thoguh I specifically asked the cleaning ladies to not enter my room, for this exact reason. I of course throw a fit including calling my mom and yelling at how upset I am about the whole situation.
I run downstairs to look for the newly cleaned sheets that I had just put on my bed the night before and I bump into the cleaning lady, one I have never met before, I didn't hear anyone respond when I yelled hello entering the house, so naturally I was surprised to find her there. I'd never met her before. She was a tiny little woman, can't have been any younger then my grandmother. And she was here cleaning my house for money. And I was immediately broguht back to earth. I used to always think to myself, why can't my life be easier. Why can't I just win some $10,000 prize that will take away all my problems. I found that I really don't have it that hard. The trials I have had with money have helped me develop an appreciation for the value of a dollar. I am blessed to have the opportunity shoudl I choose to study whatever I want whereever I want. I can if I really want to visit any counrty I want to and experience everything I want to. I have a very nice home in a wonderful community that I am blessed to be a part of. I can move away if I really wanted to and know that I'll be fine. I have opportunities that soo many other people don't or will ever have. Then I remembered I ahve soo many reasons to be happy. Not just today, but everyday. I cannot explain the joy I felt being reminded of how blessed I truly am. May tomorrow be just as positive a day as today was.
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