Trembles

It's interesting, how something that I was so sure I wanted, so sure I was ready for, hoping for waiting for can make me so happy and amazed, So intrigued and stilled can suddenly be the same thing eating you up inside. The time I had last night could not have been more perfect. I left feeling on top of the world, feeling like a whole new person, like nothing could go wrong. The feelings and heightened senses I don't ever recall feeling before brought me to a place of comfort I haven't felt in the longest time. Yet here I am reliving every moment and this time feeling like I want to cry like I can't get out of this body fast enough to escape. How can one choice evoke sch opposite feelings. Trying to wrap my head about it and stay happy while the rest of me is wrestling to get out of here as quickly as possible.
It's that feeling of wondering WHAT is holding you together because you Know you should be falling apart